Yesterday I wrote about overcoming writer's block. And then, later that day, I ran smack dab head on into writer's don't wanna.
What, you ask, is "writer's don't wanna"? Let me explain. I was working on my Work in Progress (WIP) which would be a fantasy/western mashup in the Adept Series universe. After a bout of writer's block about the work, I had an idea to move forward, a great little plot twist and an explanation of why certain things happened in the novel I'd sort of not had a good explanation for, yet. Then I decided I'd better go back and read what I'd written, all approximately 33,000 words, to ensure that nothing conflicted with my plot twist.
I got half-way through chapter two and just went "yuck." I didn't want to do it anymore. I didn't want to read anymore, I didn't want to edit anymore (which I was doing as I read it), I just didn't want to write.
This isn't writer's block, this is "writer's don't wanna." And at the moment I have no words of wisdom for getting out of it. And I'm a bit worried that if I don't want to read my work, no one else will either. Maybe this whole fantasy/western mashup is just a bad idea and I should quit it and write something else. Maybe I'm a lousy hack of a writer.
You see, it's fear and self-doubts again. This is a form of writer's block. The fear that it's NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
The only thing I can think to do is take a break and go back and read it some more. Keep working. Just keep writing (as I say over and over again). Writing requires discipline (I've said that before, too). Your first draft will be crap, get over it and write the damn thing.
So, obviously, I need to keep writing. And not on this blog.